Better times...

As some of you may have read in my post late on Friday night, we didn't have a very good evening. It was mostly my disappointment with myself for being short-tempered or "crabby". I felt LOST because I've been trying NOT to be this way and I am sad about this. I'm not "cured" by any stretch of the imagination, but today's trip to church helped immensely.

I had told my hubby that I've extended "grace" to those who cannot "deal" with their mistakes...telling them that there is nothing God will not forgive...(other than turning AWAY from HIM, of course.). I know that God is forgiving of me, but I was tired of MYSELF. I couldn't accept myself for my crabby ways. I was tired of being this way. SOME of this could be blamed on plain tiredness from our "move" or my bipolar and the fact that I have missed some of my meds (again). However I still felt unable to accept myself. I get tired of "being me"...and having to "accept" that my loved ones (friends and relatives) are often needing to "cut me slack" for my "ways". It's exhausting to TRY and FAIL, but this is "life".

Today's sermon covered that Jesus DIED for ME...I am responsible for HIS death as a Christian. He died so that I CAN be forgiven. I AM forgivable! AMEN! I knew all of this in my "head" and even in my heart, but I was tired of ME...

So one of today's revelations was that God KNOWS and I CAN KNOW that HE'S got it all "covered" with the GRACE HE gives through the death of HIS ONLY SON. I DO believe that JESUS ROSE AGAIN! This belief can be GRASPED and RE-GRASPED as we go through so many mistakes during our lives. The GOOD NEWS is that THIS is "just the world" and when JESUS returns, we will be enjoying ETERNAL LIFE! AMEN!

I DO apologize for being "preachy", but I do NOT apologize for sharing my FAITH. I do not apologize for my beliefs and I REALLY DO KNOW that JESUS LIVES!

I pray that all who read this KNOW the same, so that we can all "meet again" and I pray that you have a GREAT HOLY WEEK! HAPPY EASTER! Friday IS a GOOD day because without Friday we cannot celebrate Sunday. It's GREAT to believe and celebrate that JESUS ROSE FROM DEATH!!! AMEN AGAIN!!!

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!

Sometimes you just have to let it go...

I'm having a tough time...No, WE are having a tough time! Moving can be a pain. We don't always see our progress, we get crabby, we feel bad about ourselves because we do and we continue to cycle. We feel DIZZY and SAD and MIXED UP and FORGETFUL and I JUST DON'T LIKE ME, BUT that's okay. Some days are like this and OH...it's already tomorrow! God gives us a sunrise every day. (There's another song I like called GOD GAVE ME A SUNRISE...I wish I had the author's name at my fingertips...Stay tuned for another email when I try to update you on that! Okay?)

I wish I could post something nicer, but I guess it's just time to throw in the towel and go to bed. Tomorrow is a new day and I pray that God gives me some patience to be a better wife. I am not so good at that right now. IF I were better at being a good wife, I'm sure I would feel better and I'm sure my husband would. So...if anyone has a moment, could you please say a prayer for us! THANKS!

Unpacking can be fun...

Yes, we are having some fun, but are pretty worn-out. It IS coming along. We just went to Mickey Dee's for lunch as another break. I was trying to find a casserole dish to make rice with some pork for lunch. Guess what we're having for supper! I found many other dishes and "stuff" that I'm glad to have OUT of the boxes, but will continue to search for one of three casserole dishes that I'm sure I have in ONE of those boxes! The rice is an oven recipe from when our kidlets were in grade school and having the oven on will be fun! I baked cookies on move-in day, but haven't used it since.

We found our laminate floor to match the rest of our floors, so we can have that in our "master". We are having three painters come to quote the painting and Home Depot will be "available" just a few days after we tell them we're ready to have the floor installed. It will be nice to have the bedroom furniture out of the living room.

We got TV last night, but didn't watch much. We were out for several hours shopping for various items we felt we needed and now I think we'll be able to stay home more. That will help us progrss with the settling-in process. One reason we were out was to open a bank account, but we got side-tracked trying to FIND some meds in the mail before they were re-routed back to PA! Our temporary forward was my attempt to be sure the meds got to our daughter's house since we weren't yet "closed" in NC! (I didn't feel able to send things to an address that wasn't finalized!) We DID intercept the package which contained three prescriptions, one of which was my anti-stress one! Talk about stress! I was pretty upset for a while! We had been all ready to go into the bank, but decided we needed to go to the post office first! It was a PAIN, but we were glad to "catch" the package. It could have taken about a week to get back to Erie and another to get back to NC!

So...I'll end this here and hope to have a better "report" on our being settled soon!

We're IN!

Well, I'd like to say we're unpacked and settled, but that will take a while. It's good to be in NC and we're making this a slow-paced settling. We got to "lunch" here at the house with our daughter. (No, we didn't move here JUST for the grandlets!) ALSO enjoy seeing both "parental units". Met up to just get that chance while her daughter was at play practice. It gave her father and I a chance to visit quietly and feel more like we've arrived. We did joke around a bit, so it wasn't really that quiet. Laughing is fun! I really wasn't in the mood to "work". Just trying to catch up on some ENERGY! I could have used the help, but I told my daughter I really wasn't all that interested in getting stuff done. TOO TIRED!

Anxious to see the family on Sunday. Going to lunch after church to celebrate my son-in-law's birthday, which is Tuesday. We won't be joining them after church every Sunday, but this will be our FIRST week there and we were invited to go along for a bit of a celebration. We aren't sure if we'll continue to attend "their" church, but if we do we'll try not to "smother" them! Being "older" we would likely be involved with a different "crowd" much of the time, so we can be sure we aren't "on top" of the family too much.

We finally got our forwarding address taken care of this morning after trying at the wrong post office yesterday! We had a temporary forwarding to our daughter's...and had to change again at her post office. Didn't realize that was necessary since we could drop the card in the mail OR do it online. (Not always able to know the WHYS???) Did a bit of shopping in "stages" for groceries and other "stuff". That was a bit of a break from unpacking! We keep going back to the grocery store for a few items...One of these days we'll be ready to real grocery "run". Visited one of three Walmarts in the area and we will eventually make it to all three!

Have heard from several of you through email and this pleases me. I like to know my blog is not just going out to cyber-space...and many people have trouble commenting ON the blog, especially if they aren't bloggers themselves. I LOVE feedback! I WILL respond to emails, too.

I hope everyone is enjoying the weekend and we will try to do SOME unpacking by Monday, maybe. Tomorrow will be another day of FUN! I'm really good at that!!!

WIRED!

Realized I missed my Klonopin yesterday and probably for about a week! Missed putting them in my med box...except for two days! I was FULL of caffeine yesterday in order to drive and stay awake! THAT worked all too well, so my night was restless and sleep was SHORT, AS WELL!!! Today was much better since I do have the bag of all my meds with me and have "fixed" that problem!!! I was wondering why I "sounded" so critical and crabby all day. The last several days I blamed the "move". Now I know! Mistakes aren't fun and I DO recommend being careful with any meds anyone "takes"!!!

The money for the purchase of our house here has been confirmed "received" (by wire from PA to NC!!!) GOOD NEWS since we need that to subtract ourselves from "between homes limbo" tomorrow! (It's only a day away!...Credit to the "show/play/movie ANNIE!)

Comments are valuable, but emails are even better...jimandnancyf@yahoo.com, so hopefully anyone who wants to make comments can do so that way more easily than here.

Going to enjoy spending money on the house tomorrow and we are fairly confident all will go as planned!

HAPPY TOMORROW TO ALL!

House is sold...

Well...the Erie house is now someone else's! We are heading south to "close" on the next! We're hoping that "closing" happens without "incident" on Wednesday...Gotta spend that money a'fore it burns a hole in our pocket. Actually it's not in our pockets, but will be there "in form" IF all goes as expected. We don't want to be homeless for more than TWO nights.

Sad to say goodbye to our hometown. Have done that before! That was nearly 40 yrs. ago and we didn't plan to leave Pennsylvania again...Life turns out differently as we live it. PLAN TO DO SOME OF THAT LIVING NOW! "We" aren't fully retired, but KJF will be working online (computer and cell!)for a few more months. We'll return for a week on campus" in April, so he can work "in person"...

Nice to have TV again and internet without having to buy coffee or chicken nuggets. We've been to Tim Horton's and Mickey Dee's off and on for this past week since our cable and DSL were disconnected last Wednesday. Using WI FI at the motel tonight and tomorrow.

So good night and MAY GOD BLESS!

We're moving and I'm back...for now...

Lots has happened including a few TV "ads" about bipolar. I wish the "stigma" for this "disorder" would lift, so that more people could feel better about themselves and their loved ones...OR shunned ones...

Anyway...We are leaving for NC to live near one of our daughters and to be midway between the other two. Lucky us! We don't expect anymore snow for this next week and we'll have HOPEFULLY no chance of freezing rain for the trip.

Packing is a BLAST...Yeah, right!!! I AM uncovering memories...some sweet and others not so sweet. I'm finding things and I'm looking forward to my husband's retirement. Today he is at "school" for the last time until April when he spends ONE week back in PA. He will be working "online" till then, but he's semi-retired already, so this shouldn't be bad at all.

We have enjoyed plenty of goodbyes already and have a few more to get through. This isn't easy, but there is the excitement of being close to grandlets AT LAST! We also look forward to "settling" instead of the UNSETTLING of packing!

Please email if you don't want to comment here. I just want to know that someone is reading now and then. I will try not to be so LONG as in the past, but I don't apologize for trying to "foster" some understanding of bipolar...at least in the fact that I am a FUNCTIONING individual who wants others to know that bipolar is NOT the end of the world. When properly treated things are much different. For 34 yrs. (in case you've not read earlier posts here) I was treated for "depression" and that made it WORSE! Last July 30th I FINALLY began the RIGHT meds and I'm doing MUCH better!

Hope to hear from you...ALL, actually, but I will "settle" for a few in order to feel enough reason to re-start this blog.

Have a great week! Alane SAYS...She rarely stops talking!!! Sometimes, though!!!